Monday, June 2, 2008
12:09 PM

片思い

woohoo i'm talking to elaine peirong joanne ruoning online now and this feels so much like my actual life. for the past few days i was like, uh, rotting, until i'm not conscious of it already. and i heard A LOT OF STORIES, MY GOD. lol. hahaha i'm not wrong in criticising some people at all. some people, who think their decisions are the most accurate. you people are the ones that are 肤浅 lor. we'll see what becomes of the future ____ next year. but anyway, i am flooded with stories like siao. LOL. i am so glad you guys are finally back! haha. yay.

eh wah lao the math revision package solutions are not even solutions at all. i was doing differential equations and i'm not sure if my answer is correct, and when i check the solutions the only thing i saw was this: Use integration by parts. WHAT THE? like duh, i also know can.

and i suddenly remembered the day some of the band people went to IMM. we were going up the escalator and there were words on the glass panes which read: No Running And Playing. and for some weird reason i misread and it became: No Ruoning And Playing. and then i laughed out loud. hahaha 不好意思啊 ruoning! hahahaha.

i think i'm seriously in a state of confusion. it's okay man! i shall mug to get rid of all these crazy thoughts whirling in my tiny useless brain. but really. i just, cannot, think, properly. gladys asked me, Why aren't you like your sister huh. You're so different from her lah. (i know TKY, upon reading this you're going to feel so proud of yourself haha) but i agree totally. if you have to compare, i am so much more immature. i am trying to take things as they come, treat everything as per normal, but my brain isn't coordinating with me at all. a million thoughts simply race through my mind, and at the end, i feel really sick and tired of everything. one minute i feel this way and the next, it's completely hell of different. maybe i have split personalities.

…私はどうする？